T.T

i got nothing to say....
i really didn't expect that u know!!!
i missing u so much but then u told me those stuffs!!
was happy happy but now i'm so sad n down.....
should i bang myself on the wall???
no it is impossible coz i wont do that to myself anymore.....
wat i can say is SORRY dear~
what should i do???
i should text u next time if i busy....
at least i got text u....
it is better to do this way i think.....
arrggghhhhh~
can u tell me wat should i do so that u will know i m missing u all the time??

T,T

好久没来这里了。。。。
长话短说
想到明天就很悲哀
原因只有一个
因为我见不到你。。。。
虽然我口中叫你不用去学校明天
叫你去忙你的
但是我的心里在那一刻真的很难受
我还是忍了。。。
不要你看到我那伤心的一面！！！
我要你开开心心的过每一天。。。
刚才一下车
我整个人都变了
变到很沮丧。。。。
又到分离的时刻了。。。
再加上明天又见不到面。。。
明天的我会是怎样的呢？？？
当然答案也很容易
moody咯。。。。
我敢保证我一定会很没有心情的。。。
希望明天你能忙你的，然后好好享受你明晚的节目吧！！！
我真的很舍不得你~ =[
我自己能够找节目，没节目就发白日梦啦，做些东西让时间过得更快些！！！
不用担心我。。。
我是时候该学会独立了。。。
你一不在我身旁我就不能够做事情。。。
靠你是靠你
但是自己还是要学会如何去做事情
打个比方
像今天
你有在我都那样了
做事紧紧张张
若你没在的话
我不是死路一条
我不是不知所措。。。
我也该克服我这个缺点了。。
据需这样也不是个办法！！！
希望明天能过的快点！！！
不喜欢一个人个生活
我现在明白你以往的感受了
一个人真的很不好过。。。。
我现在体会到了。。
这种感觉真的很不爽啊！！！

最近的生活也比较忙
忙借贷款的东西。。。
之前也起了点小争执
整个人也很烦
我没怪你
问题呢是出于我这边
所以我尽量的去改了。。。。
今天说要去certified文件
你说要去STAD那里
我应该听你的
我讲要去FBL那里
过后我才发觉到我又做错了
因为那一刻
我想起了你之前在海边和我说的一些话
我也不想写在这里啦
我自己知道和明白就好。。。。
所以呢
以后不会了
真的很对不起。。。。
爱你~

好啦。。。
没心情再写下去了。。。
明天我怎样再打算吧！！！
伤心最多伤心那两天咯。。。。
我应该要怎样呢明天？？？
哇哇哇哇哇哇~
=[

Bye!!!

Celine

=]

It's been quite a few days since i wrote my blog. Well, nothing much actually. What i'm going to type here is all about things that happened these few days. This week is the first week of my first semester for my Accounting course. So, i have been busy around to settle all the stuffs that needed to be renewed and the credits transferring for english subject. As this is the first time for me to learn how to credits transfer, there are tons of questions on it because i dont really know what they need. I have already tried a lot of times to ask those authorities in MMU, but then, everyone said different things. So, who should i trust?? Who should i follow??? They have been working for so many years there, how come they gave me different answers?? At the end, i told myself just do whatever they want then just pass it up to the person in-charged. Tat's all. Not need to think this and that so much. So far all my lecturers are guys, one teaching accounting and the way he gives his lecture like nobody is in the classroom because do u all know why?? He kept reading through the slides without any eye contact with the student. If like that, he better record down his voice then just play it during the class. He just need to sit down there and waiting for students to ask him questions. I think this way much better. Can help him to save his energy. How good it is. Another lecturer i dont understand his English, his ascent is so damn terrible. I'm wondering he came from which planet. It is so damn freaking hard to understand his english~ I have to listen carefully if not i will miss a lot of his words. I dont know when i can used to it. And the last one is a chinese guy, everything not bad la. He can explain well, not bad actually!!! Hope can settle everything by this week or the latest by next week. =]

I went for movie with my babe this Wednesday. We watched X-Men, not bad also. But, i fall asleep half way just for a little while. Recently, when i go for movies, i will be very sleepy, dont know what had happened to me. Maybe i have the habit to take afternoon nap, so, once my sleeping time reach, i will be very sleepy and feel like sleeping. I seems like i dont have much different with a pig. I'm a little piggy!!! hahaha~ After watched movie, we went to Popular to buy files and foolscap papers. It cost us around RM 45++ and we subscribed a popular membership card just to get discount when we buy those things that can be discounted. After buying things that we need, we headed to cool blog and have a drink. Nevertheless, we went to buy fried potatoes at Shi Lin. What a nice time......Having fun too~ We roaming for a little while then went back home. It was time to be apart again. The feeling of being apart is so torturing. I hate this kind of feeling seriously. Anyway, we still can meet up again. There is always a lot of time for us to meet up. So, just accept it with an open heart. =] Thx for fetching me up and down my dear....love u much~

Again, that problem appeared. What can i say now?? I think i dont need to say that much. U, please dun create any problems again. Try to learn how to forgive people la. I dont want me myself to involve in this matter also.  Being a middle person is not that easy. Both of you already big enough to think. Dont try to be silly la!!! Both of you got your own boyfriend already, just put aside this problem la can?? Last night you called me and apologize to me. Basically, i wanted to ask you lots of questions also, but then, my mum was beside me that time, not really convenience for me to talk to you. That's why i will talk to you that way last night. I dont know how to face you when we meet in school. Should i greet u?? Should i just ignore you?? Should i just act like nothing happen. Although this matter is not really involve me but then there are still some misunderstanding among us. Anyway, i hope in the future no more same problem happen again. It is so damn annoying and frustrating when face this kind of problem. I just do what i should do. If you dont wanna friend with me is up to you. I have no rights to control you from unfriend with those friends that you dont like. Every human being have their own rights, i understand that. Dont worry. It is not easy to study course that i'm taking now, so i hope i dont want to have any problems in order not to affect my studies and my everything.

I guess i should stop writing now and i leave it here. Will continue when i'm free. =] Feel like my English getting poorer and poorer. Who can help me to improve my english back. So sad when look at my English level compare to those who have a good English. So admire them!!!!

Bye

~Celine~

不错的一天~

昨晚讲好了今早十点出门去学校听讲座！！！放了8.45am的闹钟，响了却被我按掉因为太赖床了~我等到9.0多分才起床。。。一起床就直接打给我的宝贝，太想念他了~ 不知不觉讲到一半的时候又睡着了~ 哈哈。。。被宝贝叫醒我！！！之后就去冲凉，准备出发~ 在等当中，我在想宝贝的心情会好吗？？？在想他还会不会静静不讲话吗？？等了大概十五分钟左右他也到了~很迫不及待的想进他车去因为已经很久没坐到他的车了，想念和他近近靠在一起的日子，那种感觉已经很久没有了！！！今天能让我坐到他的车真的很开心。。。但是当我一进到他的车时，看他一脸忧愁样，我真的很心酸。。。跟他讲话他好像有点还不开心。。。结果，我自己也变得很不开心。。。一路上两个人静到连一支针掉地上都能听见！！！我不懂该讲些什么~ 看到他那副样子真的好想哭，但是我还是忍了因为我不想他看到我这样。。结果我静了很久~ 他说一句我答一句，就这样到学校去。。。吃早餐也静静地，真的很不习惯那种感觉，我真的很不喜欢。。。到了学校，宝贝问我为什么我这样，我却一直摇头说没什么。。。但是当时的我眼眶已塞满了泪水。。。。。我还是忍了~ 到了该到的地方，见到朋友，讲讲话一下，我就好了！！！=) 听完讲座后，大概是一点吧，我们就直接往车的方向走去，拿了车后，就浩浩荡荡的出发去。。。。懂我们去哪里吗？ 当然眼在天边近在眼前的NEW JJ......看戏去咯----Pirates of the carribean!!! 3.10才开始，看了看手表后，才一点多。。。结果我们就去走走咯，我又不懂发什么神经，一边走一边跳，宝贝就用一种怪怪的眼神看著我，可是我不管，我还是小孩子样，走一下跑一下，不然就走一下跳一下，看到电梯很像看到什么将！！！真的是傻了。。。。走马看花的我们，买了个aunty's anne就走了。。。。蛮不错吃，但是有点咸，越吃越咸~ 嘻嘻！！！走着走着，不知不觉，我们走到了JJ的Foodcourt.......宝贝买了一碟的日本餐，我们两个就把那个当我们的午餐~ 吃了过后，我们又再据续走因为时间还没到。。走啊走。。。。走到腰一点酸，很像老人咯~ 唉！！！找了个凳子坐下来等时间过。。。。一直看着手表的我，很想快点进戏院坐下来好好休息一下！！！那里的人真的够准时咯，到了时间才亮灯~ 我等到很不耐烦，一看到亮灯就直接站起来朝入门的地方走去。。。。。嘻嘻~ 一进去不久后，看见有些家庭带着大大小小一起去看戏。。。。奇怪的是，孩子的父母不懂自己的孩子会吵到人家咩？？？戏开始不久，他们的孩子很像虫将，不能做静静，这里走哪里走，这里拍椅子那里拍椅子，我和宝贝看戏都看到很不爽。。宝贝却一直往后面看。。。。。最讨厌他们为什么不能看自己的孩子一下叻。。。。。。。上一次看戏呢，后面的人却一直摇脚，弄到我们的椅子一直在震动着，真的很反感咯~ 这部戏还蛮不错看，但是我看到一半的时候睡着了一下。。。哈哈~ 5.30左右戏也完了！！！还能做些什么？？当让回家去。。。为了以后的好，现在最好乖一点，不然以后出门都没得出，那就糟糕~ 我就是不想这样，所以现在要有好榜样，不然以后会辛苦！！！ 现在辛苦好过以后辛苦~ 所以告诉我自己忍下去~ 我能做到，希望你也能吧！！！

真的很想念我的宝贝啊！！！还要等那么久才能听到他的声音。。。。。过了今天，又要爱国三天不能看到他。。。。会患上相思病啊！！！好想能够久久的陪在他身旁。。。爽~要开学了，好期待哦~ 朋友们，新的学期，要好好加油哦。。。。。那当然没忘了我的宝贝，你也一样，加油哦，还记得你给我的承诺吗？？希望我们能够好好一起读书。。。做到最好！！！行不行？？？爱你~

好了。。。。在此搁笔，有空我再来敲部落格~ 再见

~celine~ ^^

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Woke up quite early in the morning, i think around 8.45am. Once i opened my eyes, my hand will automatically grab the phone beside me. Without any further thinking, i straight away called my babe. On the phone for awhile, then i had to go downstairs to help jaga baby and wash dumpling leaves ( dunnoe the actual name of the leaves ) haha!!! Quite busy today and i got frustrated of taking care of the baby. It is clearly shown that i cant be a house wife in the future. I cant stand staying at home whole day long.....hehe

Busy, busy, and busy, finally i can rest for awhile and the time shown on the clock was around 4pm if i'm not mistaken. I miss my babe badly and i called him again. He at Gary's shop that time with another friend. He seems so moody when i heard his voice, but then he kept saying that he was nothing. So, i trust him. Dont know what to talk also that time....just keep quiet. As long as i can listen his voice is enough for me. After on the phone for quite sometimes, we have to put down the phone again as he had to help Gary to close the shop. So, i told him will find him later. =)

Dont know what to blog today coz nothing much for me to type also. Got a little bit lazy to blog today....but then i still wan to blog. hehe~ yeah...result coming out soon. hope can get good result. Tmr going out wit my babe and can see him once again. wooosshhhh~ yippie yaya yippie yippie ya.....!!!! ^^

I shall stop now coz i really dont know what to type already. Will continue tmr!!! Weeee~

Bye

~ Celine ~

为什么？？？

为什么就是这样。。。你们就不能给我开开心心过日子吗？？？ 我现在还能做些什么？ 新的学期又要开始了。。。难道要我放假就这样过~ 不能去旅行，至少我还能和朋友出去聊聊天。。。我又不是很迟才回家。。。。以前我迟回，你们又唠唠叨叨。。。而现在呢？？？我真的搞不清你们。。。。一个字----烦~ 你们老一辈只会想，以后我大了，赚了钱，才自己去。。。。你们真的很肯定以后我去得了？？？我死都不瞑目若以后我真的旅行不到。。。。以后的日子，一旦你开始做工， 你会很难抽出时间去做你想做的事。。。。虽然我这样说对你们来说是个错的想法。。。但你们有没有曾今反省下你们所说的一切一切？？ 不是我要讲你们什么。。。。我也不想顶回你们。。。。做人真的很没有乐趣~ 有点想要自虐的心态。。。我真的很辛苦很辛苦~
谁能了解~ 在家时，你只会在房间，没看到我做的事，真正我做到的，你有看到吗？ 难道我真的每一样都报告给你说我现在在做些什么。。。。一旦我踏出家门，你就说我不懂跑去哪里， 一整天没看到我。。。。我在楼下时，你却在房间。。。这样你能看到我在做些什么吗。。。。冤枉啊~ 我想我应该做个全职的保姆吧！！！算了~ 我再怎样讲都没用。。。。我已经很累了~ 在你们眼里，我都还没长大，还不会想，还不够成熟。。。。对！！我承认。。。但时间能改变一个人。。。只是看慢或快罢了~ 我真的很累很累再去烦这些了~ 最多我少出门，做个宅女~ 辛苦就辛苦。。。。我真的无能为力了。。。真的不懂该做些什么。。。！！！很想要放弃的感觉~ 但我曾经对我自己说过我不能就这么快放弃，因为生活都是拥有挑战性的问题~ 没挑战就等于不是生活~ 船到桥头自然直吧！！再怎样烦都没用...

最近，不懂是我自己变了还是什么？？很多东西我以前都不会的，而现在呢。。。一点点就不可以。。。小气到没人有！！！我今天之所以一点点就会被吓的原因就是那三个害死我的video。。。。自从那件事后，我很怕要看到鬼的东西。。。为了不要扫朋友的兴，我就挑战我自己去看。。。一开始我已经被吓到了。。。之后就紧紧地抱住我宝贝到戏完！！！一出来，宝贝说了一些话弄到我很不开心。。。。我也觉得我自己变了！！！我该怎样好呢？？ 我想我应该变回之前的我。。。。不能再这样了！！！我不想伤害我的宝贝。。。他是我的唯一~ 信不信由你吧！！！

我不想再局续写了。。。。没心情~ 只希望快快开学。。。。