拜年+喝茶

今天能算是个不错的一天
早上哦不是，是中午
和比比去了学校温习点功课。。
大考来了
所以必须读好书，拼到底。。。
读读读。。
读到一半时，突然想要吃点东西
去了麦当劳。。。
吃了过后，回家去

晚上
答应了跟我一位很要好的朋友会去她家拜年
应该算是姐妹吧。。。
彼此相识了大概有13年了
我想也有一世纪了。。。
我们俩很谈得来
能说是没有秘密的那种吧
去了她家。。
吃了点糕，喝了杯水
过后和她出去了
去Station 1吃晚餐
我们不单单只是吃，
也有聊天。。。
已经有一段时间没见面了
很想她，也有很多话想说
说着说着。。
讲到了她面对的问题
讲到一半时，她哭了
我也跟她一起哭
真的是够惨的我。。
哈哈
可以说是个哭宝鬼

唉
人生嘛
难免都会遇到挫折
人生不是一条平坦的路
一定会有些起起落落。。
风吹雨打的嘛。。。
有些事情呢也要学会看开点
就像我比比告诉过我和劝过我的一些话
最重要的是尽力去做你的本分
这样你就不会愧疚
家家有本难念的经
我也同样的面对不少很懊恼的事。。
但还是要去面对
现在只好看开点
反正再怎样烦都好，还是帮不到我的问题。。。
所以一切都有它的方法去解决
其实人生嘛，要过到很有意义，一定会面对到很多问题，很多坎坷的路。。。
所以要时常告诉自己不要那么快放弃。。。
辛苦一点但能够换来一些成就感
让自己觉得我们做的不是白费的。。。。
这样我们才会开心。。。
生活也会过的开朗点~
凡事好好对待就好。。。
我只能说希望你一切都会很好
祝福你我的知心~
爱你~

哦
糟糕
开始我的病了
比比，我想念你啊~
T.T

晚安~

~celine~

最近
虽然我没把不开心的东西讲出来
但我很努力的把自己弄开心
好想把一切烦恼都抛掉
但到头来我还是要面对现实
我真的很辛苦
我怎样讲都好没人能帮到我
讲=没讲
所以不打算讲
在别人面前装坚强的我
回到家我又变了另外一个人
只好伪装着，假装什么都没发生过
我也不想给人脸色看
表面装成若无其事
但心里的那一处真的很难受
死命的再忍
我能忍到几时呢我告诉我自己
我也不想扮倒像个小孩
我也不想的
我能变回原本的我
但每当有事时，我能怎样？？
样样都不能做。。。。
这个没有，那个没有
我能怎样？？

我烦的时候我希望会有人能听我诉苦
有时坐住一个人烦，真的很想哭。
我现在好无助啊。。。

WTH you wan now huh??????

WTH you wan now???
u have millions of money d...
no no no i should say zillion....
u have been repeating the same thing to me from the day u told me about the loan stuffs and some other money stuff.....
not i dont understand what u are trying to tell me....
dun treat me like a kid.....
ya i know maybe for u all, i'm like a kid, not matured enough....
sometimes i act like kid becoz of i wanna make myself happy....
make myself laugh to hide everything from u all~
did u all know me well.....
pls keep ur mouth shut
and stop insulting me....
i know i owe u a lot of things....
so wat u wan me to do???
pay u bek now??
is it possible???
i have my things to bother...
pls dun add another things that i couldn't do it now....
i will pay bek once i start working!!!!

recently
keep making myself happy...
act like a kid...
behave like a kid...
i know my bf dun like it...
but then i have to make myself happy....
and make myself to stop thinking all those things...
outsiders cant help me too....
i appreciate those advise given to me..
but then still couldn't help me~
this is my burden man....
now study but have to bother all this things
i hope i can pay it to u
and make this amount clear....
then next time u wont talk on it again....
i hate to hear this k....
i will make sure i'm able to pay u all u wanted in the future...
dont look down on me~
damn~

什么星期天嘛....

闷到要死.....

正在捐血的我...

很懒惰走路....

整个人也不是很开心.....

不懂做莫啦...

只是很想有个人陪我...

既然没有就算了.....

要睡觉却又不甘愿睡.....

全身真的很不爽就是了......

做这个不对, 那个也不对....

一点点就pek cek.....

梁惠梅啊梁惠梅.....

做莫叻你.....

我很像不是我了......

高兴中带思念

今天和中学同班同学聚会....

在melaka baru的肯德鸡餐厅

刚到的时候已有几位马来同学到了

等啊等

慢慢的全都到齐了

但在等待当中,

一个人孤单的坐在那里.....

渐渐地开始想你了....

手就自然而然的拿起电话信息你.....

一直往外看的我,

很期待你的到来

我深信这是不可能的事....

因为你必须和你的家人去吃晚餐...

也许吃了晚餐后有其它事情要做吧.....

我告诉我自己要学会独立...

不能样样都依赖你.....

所以我开始收拾好自己的心情...

enjoy和朋友们的聚会....

但我还是不能够阻止自己对你的思念.....

怎么办好呢??

只好藏起我对你的思念

在朋友们前有说有笑......

最后

马来朋友说要来张合照....

拍照了过后,

他们(马来人)都回了...

就剩我们这些华人...

那里知道其中一为朋友问我

"为什么没带男友来?"

"他不得空, 和家人出去了"

"叫他来啦, 我们想看看他"

"他没在家啦"

好为难我......

我在想要不要信息你

我又不想打扰你,

因为你在吃晚餐嘛......

等下你的父母不高兴我....

对我有不好的印象就糟糕....

所以刚才处于conflict状态.....

最后我鼓起我的勇气信息你......

最后问了问你能不能来...

你说你有东西做...

好的..

就让你去做你的东西吧.....

你有你的私人空间...

我也不能一直绑着你.....

好让你有个呼吸空间....

让你透透气........

起初好希望你能来,

既然你不能,

我也不想逞强你叫你来.....

跟了他们说你不能来,

他们有点失落...

告诉他们下次还会有机会的.....

我也不知道为什么他们那么想见你.....

真的不明~ 

哈哈~

我和朋友们去了Restism.....

第二轮.....喝茶去......

到了那里...点了杯水.....

看看环境

还蛮不错下.....

又觉得有点要拍婚纱的感觉.....

又有点像家里气氛.....

坐着坐着.....

听到了那里拨的歌...

有好多首都是你车里有的.....

更让我对你的思念更深.....

看到别人手牵着手的走过我面前....

更不能让我不想你....

宝贝

你知道吗? 我真的很想你~

真的好难挨过那段时间.....

同时我也跟随着歌唱,  唱出我对你的思念......

跟朋友们聊着天, 慰问大家最近生活怎样....

一切都安好吗??

从他们的回复中,

大家都过得很好.....

这次的聚会真的让我回想以前中学的学习生涯.....

现在要都没有.......

不过有机会再聚聚吧~

希望大家能够过得好好的....

STPM 加油哦~

晚安.......

~Celine~

孤单的夜晚....
一个人
不懂要做些什么....
总要有个人陪我...
有谁呢?
没人
我知道不可能会有人陪的...
每个人有自己的事要做....
所以自己得陪自己....
自己找事做.....
真的闷慌了....
唉!!!

吃饱没事做
来这里敲.....
很不幸的
电话落在宝贝车里忘记拿了..
没有电话=听不到你的声音
想念你了....
今晚又是失眠的一晚.....

昨天某人的朋友加我做朋友....
拜托别再用你的朋友的户口来加我...
虽然我不知道是你叫她这样做还是什么的....
不要给我再看到你的名字...
我最讨厌的你知道吗.....
说了今天要unfriend掉她.....
结果我忘了...
所以我又打开我的主页
给我看到死鬼王八蛋的名....
所以直接unfriend掉你女友........
unfriend 了多爽啊~
请不要来打扰我......
不要给我看到不该看的东西....
妈的~

其实我没必要将卑鄙的...
但我必须卑鄙点....
再心软的话我会很辛苦....
我是个很难忘记以往所发生的事.....
不单单只是爱情放面....其它方面我也很难忘记的.....
甚至小学发生过的事我还记得很清楚.....
我现在以不再去记得以往的事了....
专心投入在我宝贝身上.....
唯有我宝贝才是我真正要的男人......
所以请你别再来加我,......
不要再给我看到你的名字......
拜托~

ok fine.......
i dunoe how to be a good gf.....
is all my fault k....
i admit everything that i did wrongly.....
that video???
how u wan me to see that video??
i dun understand k??
i said i willl ask sha,
but then she is very busy......
i know u really HATE me now.....
and i guess u will tell ur bro too what is going on with us....
so i have no gut to meet them anymore.....
ok....i'm seriously SORRY for everything that i did.....
i think u wont care what i said now....
what i did also u wont care now....
and i still remember what u told me k???
is just that when i'm angry,
i will out of control....
n words that i said is all qi hua k....
i do remember what u tell me....
i still remember.....
i know this time i have done a very big mistake.....
really very SORRY bi.....
Can forgive me this time???
i need you.......
i swear i wont treat u this way anymore....
i will be a good gf to you after this....
i need you seriously bi.....
sorry for what i have did....
我真的很想挽回一切....
我不想没有你.....
是我对你发脾气.....
是我不对.......
我不要失去你.....
你对我真的很重要......
我不想因为这样我们的感情变淡了......
可以原谅我吗???
我会好好爱你,珍惜你.......
我敢保证我真的真的不会再像之前了.....
希望你能相信我.....
别对我死心好吗????
我真的很想跟你一起走下去......
我不会再抛弃你了.....
那天我所做的真的不会有第二次了.......
相信我好吗.......
可以给我多一个机会重新好好对待你????
我真的很惭愧....
我知错了........
我爱你......

well,
if u think that i didn't give a damn on what u have done on me....
so it is up to you k....
i dun wan to talk much.......
i did care about u...
i did remember what u told me.....
i did know u well....
because of tired, do u need to talk that way to me???
i'm ur gf ok??
if next time we really stay tgt become husband and wife....
i guess u will treat me this way too...
coz now already like that......
since u said u were tired....
so i think i just need to text u and say gudnite...
that's enough for every night i guess...
i call u and wanted to talk longer with u....
although i'm freaking sleepy...
i keep saying that i'm not sleepy
why?
coz i wan to listen to ur voice....
and not listen to ur high pitch voice k???
i told u b4 i dun like people talk with me using high pitch tone.....
u seriously hurt me......
i wont fuck u off.....
i'm using that word to express my feeling only....
no other meaning.....
and if u think i'm that bad....
and feel disappointed on what i did just now....
then i'm really such a useless girl for u.....
not i wan to bring out last night stuffs...
coz u told me b4 if i'm not happy with anything just tell u
and i told u this morning...and u unhappy with it....
so when should i tell u things that i'm not happy with??
i cant tell u last night....since u were so sleepy...
so i keep it this morning~
then next time i will keep to myself since u are not happy with what i told u...
anyway,
i'm here to say SORRY once again.....
Sweet dreams and nitex

~Bye

~Celine~

u say u are not good....
then one word not good what u want me to do??

i didn't say all the sacrifices that u did is nothing for me...
that word 得寸进尺means i dun wan you to be like that....
so far u didn't reach until that stage..
dun misunderstand k....
i appreciate what u did to me......
i know u cant forgive me anymore....
so i deserve it then.....
i really dunoe what to do now....

one more thing,
pls dun everything also post in FB...
privacy pls.....
u want whole world know we quarreling???
why not u post it in newspaper...
much more better ma....
got think of when other people see what u post...
when meet in school, how they look at us???
or u wan to tell others that i'm that terrible...
i'm that bad...
i'm such that fucking useless bitch that u never met b4??
k....if u want to do so and never think of my feeling....
then go ahead!!!
let others think that i'm so bad.....
i need PRIVACY......
pls respect me~
fuck off~

FUCK la......
今天我犯了那一个神啊???
偏偏就是最倒霉的一天.....
妈的....
今天真的脾气到了最顶
真的不能再忍了....
酱大声和我说话,
连一句对不起都不能讲....
好像你完全没有错酱....
好咯...
我的错.....
如果你没说我的话...
我想我应该不会破口大骂.....
我也不想这样对你....
我根本不能在顶了....
所以一时用喊的来和你说话.....
我静静好过我说话...
哪知道一说话又说错......
所以不想讲话......
我觉得在你心里...
我是那个最不配你的吧.....
是那个最没有用的吧....
是那个每次弄你最痛心的吧....
所以我这种女孩没人要也是应该的吧.....
活该嘛....
也许我是真的很没用的那个畜生....
连狗都不如的女孩吧.....
给了自己打了两个巴掌,
也是应该的...
而不是打来让你可怜我....
博你的同情....
我能知道你一定很讨厌我刚才这样做.....
我就让你讨厌吧~
我不值得让你对我这么好....
你真的很不幸啦
找到一个这样的女孩......
这女孩对你一点好都没......
只懂得把你拉到谷底,
弄你伤心,失望, 难过~
不配吧....
找错了对象......
对不起.......
我只好说....
给大家一点时间吧.....
冷静下来.....

无奈

人生毕竟是条坎坷的路.....
很多事情呢要学会看开点......
而且
每个人有自己的想法
也许你觉得那只是个小问题
但我却认为不是个小问题.....
不是说我很在意什么的.....
但站在我立场上想,
如果换了是你的话.....
你是不是也是会不高兴些.....
你说过凡事都要替对方想想,顾虑下对方的感受
但你有吗???
你却会说没想到我会把它看到酱重......
你有你的看法...
我自己也有我自己的啊....
虽然我是很随便
样样都顺从你.....
样样都迁就你.....
我也不想讲酱多
你自己好好想想...
是我也有不好的一点
可是我还是在努力的改了
但我不想你因为我那么的随便,
那么的心软,
那么的软弱,
你就趁须而入......
得寸进尺.......
我是没介意什么
是因为我觉得我值得为你这样做.......
你不领情的话
我也没办法........
我只能说我还是不会放弃的....
我的心已经在你那里了......
你做错事, 我还是会原谅.......
我的心还是不会变.......
从开始到现在我对你的心还是一样的
虽然我们已经经历了很多风风雨雨........
若你觉得全部是我的错的话....
我只好承认啦.....
我也不想吵吵闹闹.....
推一步海阔天空.....
其中一边礼让以下...
事情就不会变得更糟......

Bye~

~Celine~

 今天
心情也不是很好....
再加上肚子不舒服....
怪怪的感觉....
头有点晕晕, 重重....
嗨~
真的是很pek cek....
虽然pek cek了点...
但我还是自己吞下去.....
不想表露出来......
一整天脸忧忧.....
我还能做些什么???
宝贝他也劝我不要这样了....
不要去想那么多...
我也答应了他....
但,
到现在我觉得我很辛苦...
几辛苦都好.....
我还是必须忍了....
哭也哭了..
女人嘛....
不会哭是骗人的...
我不敢在你面前哭太多....
所以又再次忍了.....
只是流了几滴泪.....
剩余的收起来...
自己抱着枕头哭.....
人类就是人类....
很多东西需要烦....
开开心心不是很好咯.....

我今天也累累的...
不懂搞什么鬼.....
看东西又没有神酱....
有时觉得做人到底是怎样的???
有时觉得有些东西不去想是最好的......
讲了弄到大家不爽......
所以在对的时间闭上我的金嘴是最好的....
应该说的时后就说...
不应该说的我会闪远点.....

我不懂要怎样讲啦....
我有我的苦衷....
人家说家家有本难念的经...
我呢
自己有自己的经念呗......
再怎样说都好......还是没有用~
所以保持沉默.....
时间会冲淡一切!!!!
有些事情看开点对自己也有好处!!!!
不必烦那么多.....
倾诉的时候也都倾诉了.....
到头来
还是一样....
还是要靠自己去解决...
不是说外人能帮到你什么.....
算了.....

有你在我身边几好.......
要一个拥抱都行..........
可惜
离别总是存在
所以很渴望有你的陪伴~
T.T

~ Celine ~

应该,不应该.....

应该,不应该......

应该,不应该.......????

不想去想了......

船到桥头自然直吧~

还是我自己想太多???

T.T

~ Celine ~

..............

well,
just feel like express everything here!!!!
i always love to talk talk talk n talk...
even things that unnecessary to say i will tell it out too....( not all those secrets la )
i just want to share everything with u...
all my words dont bring any meaning....
just wanna talk to u n share with u...
i really dun mean anything~
i didn't try to show off....
as i know showing off basically not a idle way to act of....
i dun like to show off though~
since u dun like like yesterday case, so i wont talk about it again....
and i will filter first before i talk....
this is much better i guess.....
i really want to share with u what i've done and u can listen to me~
what i told u purely no other meanings....i swear!!!!
if u cant take it some of the things that i told u, so no more next time la...
i admit i'm wrong for keep mentioning that things infront of you......what i can do is i wont repeat it next time..
n i will be more careful when i want to talk la!!!!
sometimes i admit my words will hurt u as i always didn't filter and think first before i talk......
after all, i will never repeat it again n again....i promise
i'm here to say sorry once again for what i've done and no more next time!!!
kla.....will be continued.....got to go d~

~Celine~

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long time didn't blog d....

recently busy with my mid-term....

left 2 subjects to go: Accounting and Management

hope the exam can go smoothly next week~

tot the past 2 subjects were difficult...

who knows when answering the papers, it doesn't seems that hard.....

maybe it was just a mid-term so quite easy la.....

must strive for the best in the next 2 subjects.....

pray hard for me ya!!!!

woke up early in the morning.....

fetched my bro to school...

then reached home after bath,

waiting for my babe to fetch me...

going to school to study Maths...

coz havent finish revising....

after breakfast, headed to learning point in my school....

12.++ pm enter main hall sitting for the exam 

since teacher had informed us that we had to sit accordingly...

so when we enter the main hall, we were searching for our seat.....

looking at top corner of every single table, we couldn't find our place.....

the most funniest thing was my babe, he found a table with the given number, so he quickly sat down...

i was looking for him to tell him that his seat was just infront of me.....

when i was looking around, i cant see him.....

at last i saw him sitting down with no paper on the table....

it was just so funny yet so cute when looking at him during that moment.....

the exam started and i glanced through the questions...

it seems ok for me initially...

but when came to the last question, it was a bit confusing...

then i just tried my best to answer it....

i was glad that my babe knew how to answer the questions..........

we relaxed for about 1-2 hours,

then we started to do things that we need to do.....

we rush rush rush and rush.....

finally we finished evrything

except the last part of our accounting tutorial....

it was so damn freaking tired

make me so moody and so so so so lazy to do things....

feel like shouting....

takkan i shout at home......!!!!

where to let me release myself??

i need ur accompany.....

feel so empty.....i want u at my side now seriously~

feel like crying, shouting and whack people....

whole body not feeling good....

><

Babe!!!! faster be at my side now......

i need u so much!!! T.T

love u

nitex

~ Celine ~  

T.T

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！！！！
饿，肚子痛，全身不爽~
很讨人厌！！！
我还能做些什么呢？？
饿能解决，肚子痛呢能服药，身体不爽能怎么办？？？
唉。。。><
在学校我没怎样，心情还蛮不错。。。
那死鬼肚子痛和全身不爽弄到我很想打人！！！
死啊~ 最讨厌肚子痛
妈的~
痛到很想在地上打滚。。。
超级不爽。。。。。
就给它痛到饱啦！！！
温水也喝了好几杯。。。
肚子有够涨！！！
希望明天会好一点！！！
不好意思啊宝贝。。。
弄到你以为我不开心。。。。
我真的没什么啦。。。
别担心
我很好！！！

现在很努力地在敷药。。。
一边敷一边打哦。。。
证明了我肚子里好多风。。。。
我是发热气呢还是肚子张风？？？
弄到肚子在搅。。。。。

考试要到了
有点紧张
不懂会怎样。。。
希望一切都会很好啦。。。
现在很努力的在读书。。
有没有进脑那是一回事了。。。
T.T


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晚安

celine

T.T

i got nothing to say....
i really didn't expect that u know!!!
i missing u so much but then u told me those stuffs!!
was happy happy but now i'm so sad n down.....
should i bang myself on the wall???
no it is impossible coz i wont do that to myself anymore.....
wat i can say is SORRY dear~
what should i do???
i should text u next time if i busy....
at least i got text u....
it is better to do this way i think.....
arrggghhhhh~
can u tell me wat should i do so that u will know i m missing u all the time??

T,T

好久没来这里了。。。。
长话短说
想到明天就很悲哀
原因只有一个
因为我见不到你。。。。
虽然我口中叫你不用去学校明天
叫你去忙你的
但是我的心里在那一刻真的很难受
我还是忍了。。。
不要你看到我那伤心的一面！！！
我要你开开心心的过每一天。。。
刚才一下车
我整个人都变了
变到很沮丧。。。。
又到分离的时刻了。。。
再加上明天又见不到面。。。
明天的我会是怎样的呢？？？
当然答案也很容易
moody咯。。。。
我敢保证我一定会很没有心情的。。。
希望明天你能忙你的，然后好好享受你明晚的节目吧！！！
我真的很舍不得你~ =[
我自己能够找节目，没节目就发白日梦啦，做些东西让时间过得更快些！！！
不用担心我。。。
我是时候该学会独立了。。。
你一不在我身旁我就不能够做事情。。。
靠你是靠你
但是自己还是要学会如何去做事情
打个比方
像今天
你有在我都那样了
做事紧紧张张
若你没在的话
我不是死路一条
我不是不知所措。。。
我也该克服我这个缺点了。。
据需这样也不是个办法！！！
希望明天能过的快点！！！
不喜欢一个人个生活
我现在明白你以往的感受了
一个人真的很不好过。。。。
我现在体会到了。。
这种感觉真的很不爽啊！！！

最近的生活也比较忙
忙借贷款的东西。。。
之前也起了点小争执
整个人也很烦
我没怪你
问题呢是出于我这边
所以我尽量的去改了。。。。
今天说要去certified文件
你说要去STAD那里
我应该听你的
我讲要去FBL那里
过后我才发觉到我又做错了
因为那一刻
我想起了你之前在海边和我说的一些话
我也不想写在这里啦
我自己知道和明白就好。。。。
所以呢
以后不会了
真的很对不起。。。。
爱你~

好啦。。。
没心情再写下去了。。。
明天我怎样再打算吧！！！
伤心最多伤心那两天咯。。。。
我应该要怎样呢明天？？？
哇哇哇哇哇哇~
=[

Bye!!!

Celine

=]

It's been quite a few days since i wrote my blog. Well, nothing much actually. What i'm going to type here is all about things that happened these few days. This week is the first week of my first semester for my Accounting course. So, i have been busy around to settle all the stuffs that needed to be renewed and the credits transferring for english subject. As this is the first time for me to learn how to credits transfer, there are tons of questions on it because i dont really know what they need. I have already tried a lot of times to ask those authorities in MMU, but then, everyone said different things. So, who should i trust?? Who should i follow??? They have been working for so many years there, how come they gave me different answers?? At the end, i told myself just do whatever they want then just pass it up to the person in-charged. Tat's all. Not need to think this and that so much. So far all my lecturers are guys, one teaching accounting and the way he gives his lecture like nobody is in the classroom because do u all know why?? He kept reading through the slides without any eye contact with the student. If like that, he better record down his voice then just play it during the class. He just need to sit down there and waiting for students to ask him questions. I think this way much better. Can help him to save his energy. How good it is. Another lecturer i dont understand his English, his ascent is so damn terrible. I'm wondering he came from which planet. It is so damn freaking hard to understand his english~ I have to listen carefully if not i will miss a lot of his words. I dont know when i can used to it. And the last one is a chinese guy, everything not bad la. He can explain well, not bad actually!!! Hope can settle everything by this week or the latest by next week. =]

I went for movie with my babe this Wednesday. We watched X-Men, not bad also. But, i fall asleep half way just for a little while. Recently, when i go for movies, i will be very sleepy, dont know what had happened to me. Maybe i have the habit to take afternoon nap, so, once my sleeping time reach, i will be very sleepy and feel like sleeping. I seems like i dont have much different with a pig. I'm a little piggy!!! hahaha~ After watched movie, we went to Popular to buy files and foolscap papers. It cost us around RM 45++ and we subscribed a popular membership card just to get discount when we buy those things that can be discounted. After buying things that we need, we headed to cool blog and have a drink. Nevertheless, we went to buy fried potatoes at Shi Lin. What a nice time......Having fun too~ We roaming for a little while then went back home. It was time to be apart again. The feeling of being apart is so torturing. I hate this kind of feeling seriously. Anyway, we still can meet up again. There is always a lot of time for us to meet up. So, just accept it with an open heart. =] Thx for fetching me up and down my dear....love u much~

Again, that problem appeared. What can i say now?? I think i dont need to say that much. U, please dun create any problems again. Try to learn how to forgive people la. I dont want me myself to involve in this matter also.  Being a middle person is not that easy. Both of you already big enough to think. Dont try to be silly la!!! Both of you got your own boyfriend already, just put aside this problem la can?? Last night you called me and apologize to me. Basically, i wanted to ask you lots of questions also, but then, my mum was beside me that time, not really convenience for me to talk to you. That's why i will talk to you that way last night. I dont know how to face you when we meet in school. Should i greet u?? Should i just ignore you?? Should i just act like nothing happen. Although this matter is not really involve me but then there are still some misunderstanding among us. Anyway, i hope in the future no more same problem happen again. It is so damn annoying and frustrating when face this kind of problem. I just do what i should do. If you dont wanna friend with me is up to you. I have no rights to control you from unfriend with those friends that you dont like. Every human being have their own rights, i understand that. Dont worry. It is not easy to study course that i'm taking now, so i hope i dont want to have any problems in order not to affect my studies and my everything.

I guess i should stop writing now and i leave it here. Will continue when i'm free. =] Feel like my English getting poorer and poorer. Who can help me to improve my english back. So sad when look at my English level compare to those who have a good English. So admire them!!!!

Bye

~Celine~

不错的一天~

昨晚讲好了今早十点出门去学校听讲座！！！放了8.45am的闹钟，响了却被我按掉因为太赖床了~我等到9.0多分才起床。。。一起床就直接打给我的宝贝，太想念他了~ 不知不觉讲到一半的时候又睡着了~ 哈哈。。。被宝贝叫醒我！！！之后就去冲凉，准备出发~ 在等当中，我在想宝贝的心情会好吗？？？在想他还会不会静静不讲话吗？？等了大概十五分钟左右他也到了~很迫不及待的想进他车去因为已经很久没坐到他的车了，想念和他近近靠在一起的日子，那种感觉已经很久没有了！！！今天能让我坐到他的车真的很开心。。。但是当我一进到他的车时，看他一脸忧愁样，我真的很心酸。。。跟他讲话他好像有点还不开心。。。结果，我自己也变得很不开心。。。一路上两个人静到连一支针掉地上都能听见！！！我不懂该讲些什么~ 看到他那副样子真的好想哭，但是我还是忍了因为我不想他看到我这样。。结果我静了很久~ 他说一句我答一句，就这样到学校去。。。吃早餐也静静地，真的很不习惯那种感觉，我真的很不喜欢。。。到了学校，宝贝问我为什么我这样，我却一直摇头说没什么。。。但是当时的我眼眶已塞满了泪水。。。。。我还是忍了~ 到了该到的地方，见到朋友，讲讲话一下，我就好了！！！=) 听完讲座后，大概是一点吧，我们就直接往车的方向走去，拿了车后，就浩浩荡荡的出发去。。。。懂我们去哪里吗？ 当然眼在天边近在眼前的NEW JJ......看戏去咯----Pirates of the carribean!!! 3.10才开始，看了看手表后，才一点多。。。结果我们就去走走咯，我又不懂发什么神经，一边走一边跳，宝贝就用一种怪怪的眼神看著我，可是我不管，我还是小孩子样，走一下跑一下，不然就走一下跳一下，看到电梯很像看到什么将！！！真的是傻了。。。。走马看花的我们，买了个aunty's anne就走了。。。。蛮不错吃，但是有点咸，越吃越咸~ 嘻嘻！！！走着走着，不知不觉，我们走到了JJ的Foodcourt.......宝贝买了一碟的日本餐，我们两个就把那个当我们的午餐~ 吃了过后，我们又再据续走因为时间还没到。。走啊走。。。。走到腰一点酸，很像老人咯~ 唉！！！找了个凳子坐下来等时间过。。。。一直看着手表的我，很想快点进戏院坐下来好好休息一下！！！那里的人真的够准时咯，到了时间才亮灯~ 我等到很不耐烦，一看到亮灯就直接站起来朝入门的地方走去。。。。。嘻嘻~ 一进去不久后，看见有些家庭带着大大小小一起去看戏。。。。奇怪的是，孩子的父母不懂自己的孩子会吵到人家咩？？？戏开始不久，他们的孩子很像虫将，不能做静静，这里走哪里走，这里拍椅子那里拍椅子，我和宝贝看戏都看到很不爽。。宝贝却一直往后面看。。。。。最讨厌他们为什么不能看自己的孩子一下叻。。。。。。。上一次看戏呢，后面的人却一直摇脚，弄到我们的椅子一直在震动着，真的很反感咯~ 这部戏还蛮不错看，但是我看到一半的时候睡着了一下。。。哈哈~ 5.30左右戏也完了！！！还能做些什么？？当让回家去。。。为了以后的好，现在最好乖一点，不然以后出门都没得出，那就糟糕~ 我就是不想这样，所以现在要有好榜样，不然以后会辛苦！！！ 现在辛苦好过以后辛苦~ 所以告诉我自己忍下去~ 我能做到，希望你也能吧！！！

真的很想念我的宝贝啊！！！还要等那么久才能听到他的声音。。。。。过了今天，又要爱国三天不能看到他。。。。会患上相思病啊！！！好想能够久久的陪在他身旁。。。爽~要开学了，好期待哦~ 朋友们，新的学期，要好好加油哦。。。。。那当然没忘了我的宝贝，你也一样，加油哦，还记得你给我的承诺吗？？希望我们能够好好一起读书。。。做到最好！！！行不行？？？爱你~

好了。。。。在此搁笔，有空我再来敲部落格~ 再见

~celine~ ^^

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Woke up quite early in the morning, i think around 8.45am. Once i opened my eyes, my hand will automatically grab the phone beside me. Without any further thinking, i straight away called my babe. On the phone for awhile, then i had to go downstairs to help jaga baby and wash dumpling leaves ( dunnoe the actual name of the leaves ) haha!!! Quite busy today and i got frustrated of taking care of the baby. It is clearly shown that i cant be a house wife in the future. I cant stand staying at home whole day long.....hehe

Busy, busy, and busy, finally i can rest for awhile and the time shown on the clock was around 4pm if i'm not mistaken. I miss my babe badly and i called him again. He at Gary's shop that time with another friend. He seems so moody when i heard his voice, but then he kept saying that he was nothing. So, i trust him. Dont know what to talk also that time....just keep quiet. As long as i can listen his voice is enough for me. After on the phone for quite sometimes, we have to put down the phone again as he had to help Gary to close the shop. So, i told him will find him later. =)

Dont know what to blog today coz nothing much for me to type also. Got a little bit lazy to blog today....but then i still wan to blog. hehe~ yeah...result coming out soon. hope can get good result. Tmr going out wit my babe and can see him once again. wooosshhhh~ yippie yaya yippie yippie ya.....!!!! ^^

I shall stop now coz i really dont know what to type already. Will continue tmr!!! Weeee~

Bye

~ Celine ~

为什么？？？

为什么就是这样。。。你们就不能给我开开心心过日子吗？？？ 我现在还能做些什么？ 新的学期又要开始了。。。难道要我放假就这样过~ 不能去旅行，至少我还能和朋友出去聊聊天。。。我又不是很迟才回家。。。。以前我迟回，你们又唠唠叨叨。。。而现在呢？？？我真的搞不清你们。。。。一个字----烦~ 你们老一辈只会想，以后我大了，赚了钱，才自己去。。。。你们真的很肯定以后我去得了？？？我死都不瞑目若以后我真的旅行不到。。。。以后的日子，一旦你开始做工， 你会很难抽出时间去做你想做的事。。。。虽然我这样说对你们来说是个错的想法。。。但你们有没有曾今反省下你们所说的一切一切？？ 不是我要讲你们什么。。。。我也不想顶回你们。。。。做人真的很没有乐趣~ 有点想要自虐的心态。。。我真的很辛苦很辛苦~
谁能了解~ 在家时，你只会在房间，没看到我做的事，真正我做到的，你有看到吗？ 难道我真的每一样都报告给你说我现在在做些什么。。。。一旦我踏出家门，你就说我不懂跑去哪里， 一整天没看到我。。。。我在楼下时，你却在房间。。。这样你能看到我在做些什么吗。。。。冤枉啊~ 我想我应该做个全职的保姆吧！！！算了~ 我再怎样讲都没用。。。。我已经很累了~ 在你们眼里，我都还没长大，还不会想，还不够成熟。。。。对！！我承认。。。但时间能改变一个人。。。只是看慢或快罢了~ 我真的很累很累再去烦这些了~ 最多我少出门，做个宅女~ 辛苦就辛苦。。。。我真的无能为力了。。。真的不懂该做些什么。。。！！！很想要放弃的感觉~ 但我曾经对我自己说过我不能就这么快放弃，因为生活都是拥有挑战性的问题~ 没挑战就等于不是生活~ 船到桥头自然直吧！！再怎样烦都没用...

最近，不懂是我自己变了还是什么？？很多东西我以前都不会的，而现在呢。。。一点点就不可以。。。小气到没人有！！！我今天之所以一点点就会被吓的原因就是那三个害死我的video。。。。自从那件事后，我很怕要看到鬼的东西。。。为了不要扫朋友的兴，我就挑战我自己去看。。。一开始我已经被吓到了。。。之后就紧紧地抱住我宝贝到戏完！！！一出来，宝贝说了一些话弄到我很不开心。。。。我也觉得我自己变了！！！我该怎样好呢？？ 我想我应该变回之前的我。。。。不能再这样了！！！我不想伤害我的宝贝。。。他是我的唯一~ 信不信由你吧！！！

我不想再局续写了。。。。没心情~ 只希望快快开学。。。。

Lim Teh-ing & Missing you

Well, not much to say, just a short and simple blog for today. Got up around 10++ , then str8 away sms my babe ask him whether he got up from bed ady..... brush my teeth then looked at my phone again, no reply from him so i took a bath and had my lunch at 12++....Wat else can do?? of course taking care of the kids at home coz the youngest one is sick and nid to take good care of her. So, have to feed her medicine on time. After that, drive my cousin to tuition at Melaka Baru and drive him back also. To ease my boredom, i just recently pick up reading as my hobby. I have studied one out of three story books that i had borrowed form my sista. Hope can finish them asap. Around 6.45, i had my bath again coz i had a date with my another sista, Ivy. It's been a long time since our last lim teh session. haha....So picked her up at the entrance of DP then we headed to Pak Putra at Kota Laksamana. We wanna go there becoz Ivy never been there b4 and she wanna have a try there. We at first plan in the car say wanna eat Naan and tandoori ...who knows when we reached there, i felt like something was going wrong coz not many cars there. I told Ivy the shop was closed. She looked sad just now and she has been not eating from afternoon just because of wanna make her stomach empty for the naan. haha!!! Dun worry Ivy, there's always a chance for us to go there and have a try again. Next time will bring u go..... After that, we decided to go to Wok & Pan coz Ivy said she wanna try on other food also. I agreed and we headed there. Once again, we got to face the same situation again, the shop wasn't open. I told Ivy Monday is the most appropriate day for those food seller to rest. Ivy ask me why and i said coz they coudn't get to close on Sunday so they put Monday as their rest day lo.....Ivy ask me why again and i answered " Sunday is the great day to have business coz most of them wouldn't cook at home and have their meal outside, so, tat's y every place is packed with people. Monday can rest becoz not many will have their meal outside after work, most of them prefer cooking at home. This is wat the business tactic that businessman will have"  haha~ Wat can we do, of course roaming around Melaka Raya aread to find other places to eat. Finally we went to East Garden if i'm not mistaken of the name. It located just next to Wazen, a place of having Japanese cuisine. While waiting for the food to be served, we were chatting non stop. When the food was served, we starred at the plate for quite sometimes coz we dunoe which food is belong to us. Until the waiter came to us and told us that which one is whch one. I laughed so hard there coz Ivy's expression was so funny. Nevertheless, the waiter kept looking at us and laughed oso. It was really funny that time. We made a move around 9.45, fetched Ivy back home and i definitely went back home oso. Sms my babe and told him that i reached home already, ask him not to worry me also. Long time didn't have a drink with Ivy, once got the chance to go out with her, we definitely talk non stop there. Anyway, hope to meet up with her again next time although we taking different courses in degree level. Miss my babe much right now. Calling him in 10 minutes time......I shall stop here and continue tmr! See u guys~ 

Bye

~ Celine ~

Add on

Aiya...just now left out something important....so now blogging again!!! haha....funny aite??
This morning, when i was on the phone with my babe and i received a message. I'm wondering what the message is about ...n i tot it was just a message from digi. who knows when i put down my phone, it was a message from my sista, Zoe. after reading the message, i texted her about the incident last night. she came to know that this morning also and i try to explain to her everything coz i dun wan people to misunderstand me. So, while on my way to JJ, i was on the phone with her. But i was so scared that i will be summoned by police traffic. I kept looking at the back mirror and missed out some of the words that she said. Nvm, there is always a chance to meet up with her. Since ii'm not so close with her and we just started to know each other, so i couldn't just simply judge her by listening to others. I should observe everything by myself and make the right judgement!
Not say i dun believe her or what, coz i do really need to know well from a person so that i wont suffer in the future. hmmmm....well, it is just a small case and i just couldn't understand why she wanna act that way...Both of u already got ur bf, y just cant forgive each other and continue ur own life. It was so shame and childish if u create this kind of problem again.....it seems like u are a troublemaker~ y cant just live ur life to the max and dun just because of a small little tiny matter and make urself suffer.....Is it worth it for u to do so??? I just dun wan to involve myself in this matter coz i'm really an outsider and i dunoe the whole story.....so i do really hope that this problem can be solved and no more next time.......I swear i hate to be a middle person. I hate it much......i have been a middle person for long time ago and it is so hard to hold that position. It is damn freaking suffer......dislike it~ Maybe will meet up with sis soon.....so hope everything going smoothly and all the best to her.....Jia you sis~

Bye

~ Celine ~

Feeling much better~

I woke up early in the morning around 9am and never forget to call my babe!!! before calling, i was just like hesitating dunoe whether call him or not calling him coz i dun wanna wake him up.....But then i just cant control myself from calling him. So, i took my phone and called him. Talked  with him for one hour then i asked him to sleep back.....haha! After that, i took a bath coz later 1pm hanging out with my sis, Sha coz it's been a long time never go out with her and i miss her so much......we decided to go new JJ....While shopping, we met our old classmate, Kang Xian and he works at OSIM right now. Just taking up part time job while waiting to enter university later. After some chatting wit him, then we headed to cool blog to have a drink. Sha was thirsty and i recommend her to try cool blog. She agreed. So i ordered 1 peach yogurt and 1 yam milk shake. I love the taste of yam. While waiting for the drinks to be served, sha went to buy aunty anne ( not very sure about the spelling ). After that, we saw a bench and without any further thinking, we sat there for quite sometimes. Chit-chatting and have a so called tea time there....Chatting, chatting and chatting....suddenly we saw another classmate too....but what i got mad was the way the girl acted just now....really dun understand why she wanna acted that way...did we owe her money or did we owe her anything??? well, next time if i met you in somewhere else, i will do what you did to us today.....u tot u are what?? teacher's daughter?? so what.......wat for i want to care this so much...just dun bother that much~ not my business...u din kacau me, i wont kacau u.....fair and square~ It is time to make a move and we were searching for the parking ticket paying machine. It was so damn freaking many people lining up there. I quickly line up and wait for my turn. haha!! patience is virtue~

Today's weather was just so hot and i couldn't stand the hotness. Feeling like going back to the shopping center again...muahahaha~ But i cant do that coz i'm going to Mori to meet up with my babe. I have been missing him for three days and i cant stand it anymore. Once i reached there, i kept looking for him.....he was just sitting right infront me but i couldn't find him just now....wat a poor thing!!! The moment i saw him, i felt like crying again and i told myself not to cry infront of him. My babe said why i dun wan to look at him coz when i look at him i feel like hugging him and cry but i cant do that during that time. So i tried to tahan lo....
We chit-chatting there and it was time to leave each other again. I hate this kind of feeling. I know i couldn't meet up with him for days after today. I will definitely miss him badly. When i think of being apart again, my tears automatically started to roll down my cheeks~ Thx babe for the comforting words and always be there for me. I love you~ No matter wat, we have to go through our hard time. K??

On the way back home, sha said she likes this type of boy who knows how to comfort u when u are sad and she hope we can last forever. Dun worry Sha, we will! I sent her back home and she lent me some story books so that i wont feel that bored in my hols. I have 3 books to go....i hope i can finish it soon. Woohoo~
Hope to go out with her again after her exam coz she is sitting for STPM this year so let her concentrate in her studies and prepare herself for the coming exam. All the best to her!! Again, reaching home, wat can i do?? of course on my pc, fbing and finally i'm blogging here~ haha

Hmmmm....when to meet my babe again??? anyway, just go with the flow.....dun put so much hope...it will make u hurt!!! so just go normal~ Miss u much!! I think i shall make a full stop here and continue blogging when i'm free. See u guys~

Bye

~ Celine ~

Suffering

I tot today i could be better...
who knows still the same.....
What the fuck is that~
today even worst, my mind keep thinking of my babe..
when can i have a date wit him??
i think next week i'll try to make myself available for him....
it is so suffer being alone...
be tgt d still feeling like alone....
y cant just u guys thk another way round??
y cant just give another chance for me to turn over a new leaf??
juz bcoz of one mistake that i have done, u all start to control this and that....
so what for living in this type of life.....
i swear next time i wont repeat the mistake again....
cant u guys just put the trust on me....
i hope to have a stable relationship...
cant u guys just put the trust on my partner??
no trust how to get a good relationship???
i dun care so much...
it takes times to proof to u all that we aren't that type of couple....
whether u guys believe it or not....
we are damn freaking suffer over here...
who knows our feelings???
wanted to close me at home...
well, what can i do??
i cant do anything....
u guys are correct in every ways
well,
i couldn't say much on that....
i dunoe how la.....
the most i also tahan foro this one whole week....
cant go out,
cant meet my babe...
well,
i wish to be crazy one day~
He is a good man to me.....
ya, if i say this way,
u guys will surely say i'm too innocent upon that....
depends on how u guys treat me la.....
i sure we can proof it to you all....
in future,
i live for my own...
not for u all....
No matter how hard it is in the future,
there's always a way for us to solve it.....
i hate to be alone.....
arrggghhhh~
I nid u babe.....i really nid you~
Sitting at home = sitting in jail
at least i have some freedom....
if everything dun wan me to learn by my ownself....
everything have to think properly first b4 commit any things...
then what for people always say that learn from mistake..
but then u guys doesn't give me that opportunity to learn from mistake...
so how can i learn new things....
maybe i always didn't fight bek with u all,
so whatever u guys said u guys do feel that u guys are correct....
maybe i'm too afraid of saying u guys back.....
i'm too timid....
u guys just know how to care for urself...
being part of ur family.....
the existence of me and well-behave of me is just like caring u guys' face....
it is very clearly that u guys are more towards self defence so that u guys can have a good image for others.....or i can say that u guys are just care for urself.......
by now, i really dunoe what should i do....
being a human is so suffer and meaningless.....
I'm trying to overcome my weaknesses....
just because of that mistake everything started to change.....
i dun wanna talk that much now......
talk much doesn't bring benefits to me...
they will consider i'm fighting with them.....
the more i say, the more i get wrong......
babe,
i hope that u are ok now....
i dun wan to see u to be like that....
all i wanted is i want both of us to be tgt happily......
no matter wat, just try out best to solve watever  problem tgt....
think on the brighter side k??
we still have a long way to go....
be patience....
I love you seriously~

Bye

~Celine~

无聊

I have been writing blog for the second time for today.....

I don't know where to express my feelings

so decided to express everything here....

I couldn't stand it anymore for not being wit my babe ....

wondering for the next whole week, what will happen to me???

How m i gonna go through next week......It is so damn bloody suffer~

No mood to hang out wit friends....

Feel like enclose myself in an empty room just me alone~

My mind keep thinking of him.....

Once thinking about him, my tears will automatically rolling down my cheeks...

When can i stop myself from crying????

now?? tomorrow?? it is impossible

coz i do really miss him much~

Didn't talk the whole day....

keep finding things to do so that i wont feel so damn bloody free....

Fucking life i'm having now....

Hope to go back to school soon...

At least i can keep studying....rather than staying at home doing nothing!!!

If i can make the time pass faster, it is much better...but, it's impossible~

When two person get tgt, the time pass like lightning....

When i'm alone, the time doesn't seem to pass that fast...is super duper damn bloody slow...

what the hell is that????

I keep telling myself to look at the brighter side,

but end up still the same.....

everything is easy to say, but when comes to do, it is damn hard to achieve that....

people always say actions speak louder than words....

Frankly telling, it is so hard to do when u really wanted to do it.....

What should i do now??

My mind is so empty now and so lost.....

blame also no use..keep blaming will make things worst....

blaming wont bring any benefits~

Frustrated!!!! Grrrrrrrrr~

whole day watching TV, play games keep loosing, no mood to play anymore~

Huhhhhhhh!!!!

Just hope for the best.......

Hope everything gonna be fine~

The more i think, the more i suffer...

so just make it simple, 

try to find things to do and fill up my empty spaces...

(say only la...tmr sure the same thing happen.....)

I'm quite emotional seriously...

When i'm happy, i'll definitely laughing for the whole day

in contrast, when i'm moody, i'll definitely emo for the whole day

if worse come to worst, i'll moody for quite a long time~

depends on how i treat the matter that i faced~

Huhhhhhh~

Don't know what to continue~ I shall stop here.....if later got anything to add on, i'll make a visit to my blog again where this is the most suitable place for me to express my feelings since not many people know i have this blog..........

Bye

~ Celine ~

 

What can i do???

After lunch, take a nap. My babe sms me but i was sleeping soundly that time. Sorry for the late reply ya my dear~ I do really miss him. But, what can i do to make him not to blaming himself anymore. I already tried my very best to comfort him. It seems no difference from last night. I'm so sad to see him like that. I really dunoe what to do to let him cool down. I keep crying when i put down the phone just now. Whenever i think of him, i'll cry!!! Damn no mood now~ I do really hope that after sometimes he will be ok. Human are not perfect. We need to do is  treat things carefully from now onwards. No more blaming!!! Blaming doesn't seem to make things turn better. We will be more suffer if we continue doing this way. It is useless to blame ourselves for our wrong. Just accept it with an open heart and think twice when commit things. I didn't blame you for doing so, i just want you to look into this matter and turn over a new leaf. Stop blaming yourself!!! I'm so sad seeing you behave this way these two days. I hope you can cool down yourself and try your best to be a better man. K?? Love u ~

~Celine~ 

我知错了。。。对不起

昨晚
已经有预感
不好的事情会发生。。。
果然不出我所料
真的发生了！！！
长话短说
算了
算我太过笨
太过单纯
不会去好好想
只能怪我自己
不够成熟
我真的很不希望我自己每次做了一件事后错了才后悔
为什么就不能先想后果。。。
证明我自己有够笨，有够blur，有够猪脑
我也不懂我自己在搞什么鬼。。。
真的是废人一个。。。。。

看了他的部落格后，
眼泪就一直在飘。。。。
今早起来，想起这件事眼泪流不停。。。。
真的很对不起我的家人。。。。。
丢了你们的脸。。。。
请原谅我所做的一切。。。
怪你们的女儿，侄女不会想。。。
我是个chiak liao bi 的畜生。。。
吃将大，头脑生在那里。。。
梁惠梅！！！是时候懂得如何去想了！！
真的是无可药救了若在这样下去。。。

现在的心情难以形容。。。。
好想把自己撞墙去。。。。
好想用自己的手来打自己。。。。
我不知道这件事该烦到几时。。。
脑海里一直在想著这件事
要怎样补救呢？？
我想应该补救不回了吧！！！
错了就是错了。。。
我保证下次不会再有同样的事发生了！！！
为了我们的将来
我们的感情。。。。。
一切都必须看清楚它的后果
尊敬彼此
慢慢来吧！！！
“ Bi,
事情都过了
不要在内疚
改过自新，
这样就好了。。。。
下次先三思，好不好？？
谢谢你~
我也不想看到你这样。。。。
把那件事当做是一个经验吧。。。
从错误中学习！！
这样才会成功
知道吗？？
不要在自责了好吗???
不管怎样，
我们必须一起承担一切。。
多辛苦都好，
慢慢来。。。
很多东西都不急。。。。
我们的路还很长。。。
我相信我们能做到~
证明给他们看。。。
至少我们经得起考验。。。。
不要那么快放弃。。。”


自从这件事情后，
我整个人很像变得很沮伤，
很堕落。。。。
吃都不想吃。。。
早上突然之间晕了一下
我也不懂发生了什么事。。。。
一瞬间有想死的念头。。。
但我对我自己说
生活不是那么的简单。。
一定会有起起落落的时候！！！
无论如何
坦然的去面对
往好的一面去想
错了就改。。。
我知道家人是要我好。。。。
他们担心我走错路。。。。
我保证我会好好念书。。
不会再去乱搞了~


一面打，一面哭。。。。
吃大便啦梁惠梅~
怪你自己好了。。。
不能怪他人。。。。
是你自己不会想。。
现在事情发生了才来哭。。
有何屁用？？？
醒醒啦。。
不要在傻傻的过生活。。。。
真的是很气自己。。。
为什么会有这样的我。。。
现在自己拿来烦。。。自找的~
新的学年，新的开始，新的一个我。。。。
算了。。。该骂的都骂了。。
该讲的都讲了。。。。
现在只好自己反省下。。。
面壁思过。。。
心情真的很不好。。。不想讲话~

不懂要写些什么了。。。
今天就停在这里~
稍后再来敲部落格~
再见。。。

~Celine~

~movie-ing~

(Is thinking of what to type here)

Got up early in the morning to prepare myself for movie. Woke up around 9.30am and also never forget to woke up my babe too. I have a habit to lie on bed before i officially get up from the bed. Last time i dun have the habit to bath early in the morning, i used to bath late at night. But as we know, bath in the middle of the night is not good to our health. So now, if i didn't bath in the morning, i feel like myself still in blur mode and don't have that spirit to do my things. After bathing, waiting for my babe to fetch me. We had our breakfast at a roti canai stall near station 1 melaka raya. Not bad actually. It was 11.15am i guess after having our breakfast. We headed to mahkota parade and parked our car there. Then we walked to DP to have our movie which will be screening at 12pm. Watching Fast 5 and it was quite nice. That movie ended at 2.15pm. Babe said wanna eat sushi after movie, but eating sushi will make us poorer coz it is too costly. End up we went to wong kok to have our lunch since i never been there for a long time. It was still early for us to go back, so we walked back to mahkota and roaming. We got nothing to do after that so decided to go back home. Driving half way, babe said wanna find his friend at a CD shop. Who knows when we reached there, the shop wasn't open. Babe called his friend and questioning him. After knowing this and that, then we got to go back home coz we didn't have a place to go for. Both of us looked sad coz we need to be apart again. It was such a poor thing to us. But, think positively, we still have chance to meet each other. ^^
Looked after my " kids " and bathed for them. I was just like a baby sitter. M i have the potential to look after my kids in the future?? hope so.....wakaka~ 7 o'clock watch Sg. drama coz too bored don't know what to do. Sg. drama nice to watch and they are quite efficient in launching new drama. My job to take care of baby is over and it is time to pass to my mum to jaga again. hahahaha~

Again, i think have to suffer from lovesick coz cant meet my babe for few days. Anyway, i'll try to fill up my empty space with some stuffs at home just to cover up my boredmess. If not, i will get crazy without doing anything. Hope to go back to school as soon as possible. Don't wanna stay at home for so long. I cant stand it! My new target is to aim for 1st class in my degree level with my babe. By doing this way, it will motivate myself to study harder and achieve the best result. Though it is tough, we still need to overcome it and i understand the rewards after hardship.No matter how hard it is, just bear in mind that, not everything is so easy to do. Every human being have to go through hard time in life in order to live happily and more secure in the future. Good luck to myself and i know i can do it. =)

Dunoe what happened to my babe today. Last few days gila angry bird. Now, he gila 7 dwarfs' song. It brings me back to my childhood time. Make me recall all those nursery rhymes and now i have been singing these songs to my so called kids at home. Nice yet not tired of listening to those songs. Love it~ haha!!! No matter how he behave, he is still my man and the only one. ^^

I guess i should stop here today and will be continue tmr if i'm free.

Bye and nitez~

Celine

~Better~

Well, nothing much to say....Heavy down pour early in the morning. The weather was eventually nice to sleep and it will be much better if cuddling with the comforter. But, the moment i opened my eyes, my mind automatically think of my babe and i guess he was sleeping soundly that time. I looked at my phone, it was already 9.30. Without any further delay, i quickly called my babe and woke him up. I love to listen his voice when the moment he woke up. Awww...it was so nice to hear. M i crazy or what?? Frankly, i love to listen his voice through phone but i don't mean  i dun like to listen his voice face to face. Don't misunderstand upon that. After brushing my teeth, i was ready to wait for my babe to fetch me. While waiting, i flipped through the newspaper and see what's happening recently. I saw an article about a mother found her son after a 11 years of landslide at Hulu Langat.15 minutes later, he arrived, and i cant wait to get into his car because i miss him so so so so so much~ After that, we just did what we wanted to do...I enjoyed the moments we made ourselves a plate of maggie. My babe was so frustrated looking at the egg he fried because he wanted to have a bull-eye egg but failed. He tried to fry second time, still the same so at the end he have to finish up two eggs.  I guess those eggs aren't that fresh. Luckily, mine was perfect. Haha~

~ Skip ~

We planned to go to Muar this coming Friday but i cant make it anymore because my mum not allowed me to go out so often. She said she wants me to look after the house and do some house chores, don't everyday hanging out. My mum has her reasons why she doesn't want me to do so....I understand her. Anyway, i learn how to take things easy and face it with a positive thinking. Not a big deal also for not going there. We still have chance to go there right babe?? We are not rushing also. Not say our world gonna end tomorrow or what. ^^ Like what u have told me, boring or excited we also need to pass our day....Y not we pass it happily.....Totally agree with your words! =)

~ Skip ~

My mood today is much better than yesterday. Yesterday totally sucks!!! I'm quite happy and cheerful today. Dunoe what had strucked me......Oh ya!! about her, really sorry if i have done anything wrong or any words that hurt you. I really don't  mean anything la girl~ Pls forgive me for doing so.....I really don't have that freaking comment on both of you...Both of you are sweet!!! Seeing you having your own life with your love one, i'm here to wish both of you have a good day ahead and all the best ya~  =) Misunderstanding in life is a poor thing to me......Hope everything will be fine after this!!!

What more can i say now?? hmmm...any parts i have left out??? i guess most of it i have already written it here!!! All those tiny things i don't think i need to list it out ~ I know i'm crapping all the way and talking nonsense. Hahahahaha~ I shall stop now and will be continue tomorrow.....Nitez and sweet dreams!

Bye

~Celine~



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什么假期哦~

今天一整天都不懂自己在做些什么。。。。。整个人还蛮怪的！！！头脑不懂在烦什么。。。。发觉到自己最近有点怪。。。也不懂为什么。。。可能是因为在烦那个吧！！！做女人真难~ 现在问题是我整个人很不爽。。。。真的很辛苦很辛苦~ 我能做些什么呢?? 又酱闷的假期。。。会死人啊！！！看着其他人有节目，而我呢？？像傻子将无所事事~生菇了啦~他妈的！！！好想快点结束掉这个假期。。。。期盼着开学的那一天~也许人家会说我变态。。有得放假不要放，却想要快点开课~ 我真的闷到没话讲~ 闷到快疯了！！！我最怕就是寂寞。。。。孤孤单单~


 今天和宝贝去逛街。。。逛啊逛！！都不懂要做些什么。。。。走着走着。。脚渐渐酸了。。。肚子呢又开始饿了。。。但是我就是不要吃。。。等到回家时才吃！！！因为最近的我太厉害花钱了。。。一直花在吃！！吃肥我是真的~ 所以我宁愿不吃。。。为了要省！！！宝贝一直说每次和他出来我一定没得吃。。。一直说自己没用啦， 没有钱啦。。。。。。但我不曾怪过他。。因为我知道我们还是学生。。。要怎样拥有那么多的钱哦！ 宝贝，别想那么多，我不怪你~ 最多我们两个人一起省咯。。。。我宁愿饿死！！！我也发觉到我太会吃了。。。。吃不停~ 算了啦。。。下次出门要带便当。。。。。不带的话就不用吃~ 最多当时的我已经不再是我了因为没得吃。。。没得吃我整个人就会变~ 习惯就好。。。久了我就不会这样了！我要把我的胃变小，所以需要一点时间来弄它。。。。无论如何，能看到我的宝贝我已经很开心了。。。。看到他自然而然的我整个人便不一样去。。。。。真的不能没有他!! 很想快点见到你宝贝~


Arrggghhhhhh~ boring until dunoe what to do......getting frustrated from day to day......what can i do?? feel like my life is meaningless......i wish i could be at my bi side now!!! Grrrrrrrrr...........help me pls~ i think i gonna be crazy one day~ i cant stand the boredness....how suffer it is being alone and nothing to do~ well, i prefer to make myself busy for something else rather than sitting at home rotting~ wat the fucking holidays that  im having now~ damn !!! Bring me out from this place pls........=(

i should stop now coz i dunoe what to continue and i'm getting frustrated........wooossshhh~

Bye

~ Celine ~

~ boring ~

during exam and after exam no much difference....
people having their vacation and activities but what about me?
sitting n rotting at home...sucks la~
pls la can i have some activities for my hols??
i dun wan to sit at home the whole day la...
my hols will be a meaningless hols.....sienz
jaga baby, look after the house, and so forth.....
isit this are the works that i need to do in my hols??
what the hell is that.......pissed off la~

just now after dinner around 6.30...then rest awhile then go tido...
slept until 9.30 just woke up.....so fresh that time .....
now is the time for me to sleep...but what m i doing ??
off course updating my blog, facebooking, playing games.....
i think my life will be go on like this during this two weeks of hols beside hanging out vf my babe~
i m so so so so fresh here...n dun know what should i do...or can i dun sleep tonight??
woke up d smsing vf my babe....suddenly very emo....dunoe y...
feel like crying....cry for no reasons.......and mood swings for awhile~
after some comforting words from my babe, i ok d.....
i hate to be alone doing nothing....what kind of life is this???
i nid people's accompany......i know i have my babe now, but when i bek home, i can consider i'm alone again....the feeling of loneliness really not nice.......i nid u babe.....i really nid u, w/o u i'm just like a 废人。。。。no directions , dunoe where to headed for~ u are the only one to me....love u from the bottom of  my heart~

tmr no plans...dunoe where to go...so decided to stay at home....waiting for the mushrooms to grow.....can i stand so long for not going out tmr?? i try to control myself.....once go out, the money flowing out also...i'm not that rich but this few weeks i really spent a lot on food...blame myself for eating too much d....now really nid to cut down my cost d....if not going out, i will miss my babe badly....how m i going to handle that?? lovesick~ arrggghhhh~ hate to face this type of situation!!! issshhhhh~ dun care so much la......sui ji ying bian!!! It is late night now, i think i should stop n continue my words tmr.......nitez & sweet dreams~

love u

celine =)

bye bye foundation~

Today is the last day for my foundation program. After today's exam, i'm officially completed mt foundation. For those who wanna move to mmu cyber or elsewhere, good luck to u all and may God guide u and bless u all in the future. Glad to have all of u as my friends. =) Time really flies, everybody now has to move on their own path and achieve their dreams.....It is still a long way to go for all of us to get what we want and to achieve what we dreamt of.......Once again all the best in ur future ya~ ^^

Yesterday after revision vf my babe went to Jonker to carve for food...haha!!! we feel like eating everything there......coz maybe we are too hungry.......like hungry ghost!!! haha~ but anyway, i like that moment we were carving for food.....after finish all food, it was too full for both of us....i had the satisfaction after that.......nice wei~ especially the durian stuff~ thumbs up......love u dear~

awhile more going to school...sitting for the last paper!!!! woohooo.......finally hols coming..

will be continued

Celine

Crapping......

It's been a long time since i last posted my blog. What more can i say now??? Hmmm.....well, nothing much change....i'm still who i am....I enjoy my life now coz of him!!! I just wanna say that he is the meaning of my life now....i do really hope that nothing can change our love.....^^

About studies, well, i can say that this sem just reach average level .....Do hope that in degree level i can attempt a better result....the journey of life still a long way to go....trying my best in my studies!!! after this week, holidays coming.....after two weeks of holidays, i will have to upgrade myself to a more tougher and complicated level....although how hard it is, i still need to face it.....this is what we call challenges in life....never every forget that life isn't a bed of roses!!! just take it easy n face it patiently.....

Hols, Hols, Hols!! what else can i do during this coming hols??? ermmm.....movies, kayak-ing, and what more??? just enjoy my hols with these only?? what the hell!!! hate it when it comes to hols...coz my hols will be a bored hols....i'm facing this problem each and every year......can i have an enjoyable hols ever?? luckily he is around or else i think i need to take up part time job to cover my boredness.........=(

I should stop now....
will continue tmr~
hehe

~celine~
Love u darl~

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突然之间很想吃很多东西......

不懂做莫吃了很快就变饿......

吃吃吃...

不肥都假....

可是我就是很喜欢吃..

能吃就吃

不能吃就硬硬往嘴里塞....

哈哈哈哈

总之吃就是了

人家说有得吃是福啊

对啊...我赞成!!!

天啊

好不容易变瘦

现在又肥回了....

真的没办法...

就是很想吃吃吃....

肥又肥在我不想要肥的地方

应该肥的不肥......

加辣啊....

是时候不去想食物了啦

但是就是不能控制我的食欲....

怎么办???怎么办???

明天要上战场了

希望一切顺顺利利

要求并不高

能及格就好啦

但是还是要好好读啦

不然这个学期会死到很惨...

各位

加油啦....

拼到底....

chiong ah~~~~~

过了这个星期

接近年边啦

好期待哦

新的一年新的开始

祝福大家...

一切

顺顺利利

身体健康

学业猛进

幸福安康

吉祥如意

...........................

嘻嘻!!!

Liang Popo 上